Why do I feel so uneasy?
One moment I’m in love with Abba’s presence and the next I’m absolutely hating it. I don’t know if this is right, but I know it’s unlike me. I feel like I’m in some sort of wilderness period, but I can’t really seem to understand what it really is.
I’m struggling. Sometimes, I just want to distract myself from acknowledging His presence, but then I realize that He is always here and in me, so there’s no way to even go about doing it.
Sometimes, I feel like I want Him to leave me alone and sometimes, He is all I want to be around. It’s all so confusing. I feel under attack and I just can’t seem to really explain what exactly is happening to me.
At times, I just want to be free and run away, but then I can’t. You can’t run away from the creator, it’s highly impossible. He is omnipresent.
Days like this really affect me. I don’t know why all this is happening, but I just want it all to stop.
I feel like a walking corpse sometimes, and other times, I feel absolutely great. These days I’ve become so conscious of my thoughts that I can’t seem to think straight.
Everything is so difficult.
I feel alone even when I know I’m not. I don’t understand this feeling. It’s not normal.
I love singing praises, but these days I’m struggling with it. Something is wrong and I can’t seem to understand what is making me feel this way.
I’m probably the one making myself feel this way, but then I don’t know how to control it. Hopefully, I get out of this funk.