I’ve decided to quit faith posts…
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m never going to talk about God ever again,…. instead, I’ve just gotten to a point in my life where I actually want my intimate relationship with God to be kept private. Recently, I’ve been going through a lot of therapy which I briefly discussed here, and so far I’m learning so much about myself, my purpose and most importantly, my health.
For a long time, I completely put off therapy solely for the fear that it won’t really help me in the healing process, but sadly I was totally wrong. God created therapists for a reason, and if He created them, then there’s probably a reason why He did so. And since I started taking therapy a lot more seriously, I began to see why He did.
Most of the successful, goal driven and talented people I look up to all have one thing in common. They have a therapist!. And for a long time, I always assumed they probably had a very shitty life behind closed doors hence why they all had therapists, but come to find out that, that wasn’t necessarily the case. These people use therapy as a way of staying emotionally healthy, and I was completely wrong to even think that it’s only people who have a shitty life that need therapy.
Since starting my own journey with therapy, I’ve learned how important it is that we all get some for ourselves. Yes, it can be quite expensive….but if you do have the money to spend on it, I’d say go for it! A lot of us tend to look down on therapy (myself included), and it’s really sad because I can’t even begin to describe how it has absolutely changed my life for the better.
I’m starting to get a clearer picture of what I intend to do with my life, and I’m also starting to see the vision for this blog as well as other platforms I have. And for a long time of running around in circles lacking direction and focus, I’m slowly starting to see the path I was always supposed to be on. Most importantly, I’m also starting to really see my worth and value as I progress.
Why I’m really quitting faith (life) posts
I don’t like it. Shocker! but I don’t. I don’t like sharing my intimate relationship with the whole world. Period.
At first I didn’t mind it, but after therapy and really looking within myself, I’m starting to see how much I actually prefer to have a relationship with God without having to let others in on it. Plus, I find that involving others brings so much warfare, criticism…etc and I get super sick and tired of it. When I first created this blog, my intention was to help people and motivate them, but since I started writing faith (life) posts, I felt like I kept sharing details of my intimate life that began to attract a lot of problems with it. Some days, I would literally want to write something truly inspirational, but since the blog started heading in a different direction, I would hit a wall and shut off. Plus SO MUCH MORE happens in my life and my relationship with God that I never have time to share on the blog… so quitting altogether felt like a great decision. Also, knowing very well that more than half (if not all) of my readers and subscribers actually prefer my advice and recipe posts, I decided to just ditch it completely and focus more on what my heart really desires.
What therapy has been teaching me:
Self-love: When I first got saved, I was totally not into the whole self-love preaching, but these days, I’m realizing just how important self-love is. It took therapy for me to realize that I actually haven’t learned to love myself, even when this whole time I truly believed in my heart that I did. Since I started embracing self-love a lot more, my purpose became so much clearer as well as my wounds. I began to notice how some of these wounds occured due to the sole fact that I never really learned to love myself, and because of that, I always ended up in situations and friendships that were completely unhealthy.
Saying NO: I am such a yes person, it sucks. But I’m starting to realize the value in saying NO. Since I started learning how my NO’s can save myself from getting involved in something detrimental, I haven’t been the same anymore. If something or someone isn’t going to add value to my life, I’m just going to say NO, regardless of who’s feelings get hurt. Because In the past, I always said yes out of fear of hurting people’s feelings, without realizing that I kept breaking my own heart in the process.
Letting go: One thing I’ve been doing a lot since therapy began is learning to let go. I’ve had to let go of friends, family and just about everything else in the book. And in the process, I’ve also learned to forgive as I release. At this point in my life, the people who are currently in my life are the people who are supposed to be on my journey, and those who have left were never meant to be. There’s a popular quote that says “if you can’t accept me at my worst, you don’t deserve me at my best” and that quote has been my motto lately. Because right now as I’m getting my life and myself together again, I’d rather let bygones be bygones.
Someone else’s opinion of me is not by business: From all I’ve learned so far in therapy, this has been the biggest one. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I tend to care too much about what others think that I often lose myself in the process. But then again, I also think it has to do with a lot of insecurities that I had buried and ignored within me. Learning that people’s opinions of me (which is often times wrong) is not my business has really changed my perspective of how I view the world in general.
Working out is great: I’ve been waking up daily to go for runs and It has really allowed me gain so much clarity. Sometimes, a little workout does a great job at releasing confusion in order to gain more clarity. And I have been loving it so far… (although my thighs frigging hurt),.. but the physical pain has definitely clared up a ton of emotional mess for me.
Privacy is essential: This also has a lot to do with why I’m quitting faith (life) posts for now, because I’m really starting to truly value privacy. God has been doing so much financially, physically and spiritually in my life, and honestly, I don’t want to share any of those experiences with others. I actually value it so much that I rather just keep it between me and Him, and so far it’s been really strengthening my relationship as well as keeping me humble. Pride usually arises when one becomes too much of an open book and I see this happen a lot in people who are extremely open. Knowing how much God values humility, I would rather keep my mouth shut and say nothing.
We all need therapy: Yes, even you reading this post right now. The truth is; a lot of us are wounded. Some of us know we are and address it right away, while the rest of us try to bury it and act like it’s not even there.
For a while I buried mine and acted like it wasn’t even there without realizing that I was breaking into pieces by doing so. And the more I broke into those tiny pieces, the less I became capable of truly loving others. Thankfully, God revealed how wounded I was, so taking care of that actually started allowing me love others genuinely.
“Don’t just pretend to love others. Really love them. – Romans 12:9″
I really hope you guys understand where I’m coming from especially with everything that has been going on recently. Coming to this decision was not easy for me, but knowing that it will be great for my spiritual health, I just had to make the decision.
Till next time,